Never Break the Sunrise Rule

5-17-10                 12:50pm

So, if you didn’t read my last post, there’s a sunrise rule. Never break the sunrise rule. Grrr. It’s never good.

I can stay up all night every night as long as I go to bed before sunrise. I can fall asleep to the birds chirping and the glow outside, but if I don’t go to sleep then… First I get really happy, hypomanic. Then I get very agitated, then exhausted. I used to be able to just stay up for the day. Not anymore. The happiness also used to last. Also not anymore.

So I went to bed around 8am. Set my alarm for 9am because I really wanted to go to this free concert in La Jolla at noon. I ignored the alarm. Then my phone kept going off. Really? Why do people call me in the morning? It’s evil. At 11am my pdoc called for the second time so I answered the phone. I could barely understand what he was saying. I layed back down and the phone rang again. My neuro’s receptionist arguing with me, trying to convince me that I did NOT call twice last week. Really? Cuz I think I would know. And I checked my phone. Going back to sleep is not possible since it’s now light out and I did not take my Seroquel, since that would make getting up in less than eight hours almost impossible. So now I’m stuck with this dilemma. I have energy though I’m tired and I’m up. It’s only almost 1pm. I have nowhere to go. I need to write minutes and an agenda for the board meeting tonight and write a letter and mail some packages, but none of that is interesting. I’m hungry, but for some reason my mom’s not awake. I don’t know why she’s still sleeping. And she got angry when I asked. She said, “You sleep ALL day. Why do I have to be up?” Geez. I don’t care if she sleeps. It’s just out of character.

Note to self:

Never break the sunrise rule. Always take your Seroquel. And learn to cook so you don’t stave. Otherwise, you’ll have nothing to do, too much energy, and go crazy.


© Michelle Routhieaux 2010

Sleep is Sleep

5-1-10                   3:33pm

Okay. Vent. I DON’T HAVE TROUBLE SLEEPING! God, that’s annoying. Hence the phrase, “I don’t have insomnia, for the 1,000th time.” I’m sorry but that just makes me angry. I don’t know why people can’t comprehend that although I don’t sleep at NIGHT that doesn’t mean I don’t sleep.

I just got a comment on my Beginning Here post on another site saying he wished I could get a good night’s sleep and told me about this computerized sleep system and mentioned sleep meds. HELLO! (sigh) What I wrote verbatim was “I don’t have insomnia, for the 1,000th time. I stay up all night because it’s quiet and it’s what my body likes, which is good because I can’t handle much day.” That in NO way says, “Help me. I can’t sleep.”

What is so wrong with not sleeping at night? WHY can’t people get it? There is no difference in the quality of time between 11pm-7am and 6am-2pm. None! It’s just shifted. Different hours. If I worked the night shift, they might understand a tiny bit more. However, most people seem to lack the ability to comprehend this fact: Sleep is sleep, no matter when you do it. I actually sleep more than most of the people I know. So PLEASE, resist the urge to tell me to sleep or how to sleep or when to sleep. I’ve got it covered. Thanks.