Beyond Complicated

5-20-10                 2:30pm

I had a relationship this past winter. It was so far beyond Facebook’s description of “complicated.” It ended badly. I work with this person and I didn’t talk to him for awhile. But recently we’re civil again. He gave me a ride home this week and said something I can’t quite shake.

It’s a long ride and toward the end he apologized for what he’s put me through. He said he was following his own agenda and motives, that he realized I wasn’t keeping secrets. He just wasn’t listening. Then he said it. “I hardly even noticed it was you.” I get goosebumps when I think of that.

I’ve known this person for a very long time. At one point we were close friends. I shared with him almost everything. I’m not sure why he shared this with me. “I hardly even noticed it was you.” It’s kind of the equivalent of “I was just using you” or “I really didn’t care.”

Nice to know he realizes he’s an ass.

© Michelle Routhieaux 2010