Beyond Complicated

5-20-10                 2:30pm

I had a relationship this past winter. It was so far beyond Facebook’s description of “complicated.” It ended badly. I work with this person and I didn’t talk to him for awhile. But recently we’re civil again. He gave me a ride home this week and said something I can’t quite shake.

It’s a long ride and toward the end he apologized for what he’s put me through. He said he was following his own agenda and motives, that he realized I wasn’t keeping secrets. He just wasn’t listening. Then he said it. “I hardly even noticed it was you.” I get goosebumps when I think of that.

I’ve known this person for a very long time. At one point we were close friends. I shared with him almost everything. I’m not sure why he shared this with me. “I hardly even noticed it was you.” It’s kind of the equivalent of “I was just using you” or “I really didn’t care.”

Nice to know he realizes he’s an ass.

© Michelle Routhieaux 2010

1 thought on “Beyond Complicated

  1. I’m so sorry for his betrayal of your trust and friendship – precious things that shouldn’t be “toyed” with. You’re WAY TOO WONDERFUL for that. You don’t deserve to be treated like that. I’m so sorry it happened and deeply disappointed in him.

    Totally agree that your situation with him is beyond “complicated.” That he recognized his shitty behavior to you – and apologized for it is a good 1st step. But, as you already know . . .


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.