Shoutout for Cheap Easy Recipes

4/24/12     9:32pm

So, I met with my doctor today. Had a super great session. And my homework is to learn to cook. (deep breath) Cook? I’ve never cooked real food in my life. I order pizza, warm up pizza, occasionally make a peanut butter & jelly sandwich. But I don’t cook. I am intrigued and terrified by the idea. I bought myself a skillet today at Walmart. Not sure what to do with it. But I wanna give it a go. This thing called cooking.

So this is a shoutout for cheap easy recipes.

What I have:
Microwave, toaster oven, oven, stove, toaster, blender, crock pot, turbo cooker

I don’t like:
Garlic, thyme, rosemary, sage, seafood

He said anything frozen doesn’t count as cooking. Damn. Anyway, I’d appreciate some recipes people really like that maybe a seven year old without supervision (aka ME) could try. Thanks in advance!


© Michelle Routhieaux 2012

I am SO hungry

1/6/12     11:28pm

I am so hungry. SO hungry. I can’t BEGIN to tell you how hungry I am. Even though I know I shouldn’t be.

I go through phases where I don’t eat much and am not hungry at all. Then there are times like now when I just can’t stop eating. I don’t have an eating disorder. I’m not on a new medication. I’m just HUNGRY. It’s so frustrating. I’m literally salivating, even after just eating Chinese food and drinking a bottle and a half of water.

I don’t know what to do about it. My hypothalamus hates me. There are so many random things going on with me. And last week’s mania. And my staying up super late now yet sleeping 12 hours a night when I was going to bed earlier and sleeping about 8 hours. And my inability to control my body temperature. And getting fever blisters on my lips again. And feeling SO cold. And now HUNGRY. And more horny than usual. What the fuck is going on with me???

I can’t keep eating and get fat again. I can’t tolerate being fat. But I can’t tolerate feeling hungry either. I Googled around for appetite suppressants and all I found were diet pills. I don’t want to lose weight (although it wouldn’t bug me). I just don’t want to gain it by eating when I couldn’t possibly be hungry but feel starved. This is a problem for me.

If I don’t eat, I continue to feel hungry. If I don’t eat for long enough, I get sick. But not knowing when I’m actually hungry interferes with my knowing if I’m going to get sick. If I do eat because I feel hungry, I don’t feel full. I feel even MORE hungry. Which is worse. But I have to eat something. And if I don’t eat, and eat and eat, it’s like I’m going to explode. What is the solution? Is there one? Or do I just have to wait until my body swings back the other way to eating almost nothing? A few months ago I couldn’t eat more than half of a kids meal at Panda Express. Today I finished off a two entree plate, with the chow mein, 4 spring rolls and 3 sodas. And, while the physical fullness was painful, I still felt hungry. As I do now. I don’t know what to do.

(sigh) I’m hungry.

© Michelle Routhieaux 2012