Polka Dots. I’m having polka dots. Not the cute circles. Random splotches of extreme moods. Last night I had an intense suicidal polka dot. Right now I’m extremely agitated. None lasts more than a few hours but they can be dangerous. It helps that I know they will pass. But they’re still intense.
What do you do with polka dots? They do not belong to all of us. I was thinking about that last night. When one or more of us is freaking out, the others aren’t. It is not appropriate to change everyone’s meds and you can’t just change one.
I DON’T UNDERSTAND!
I would never give 3 more Seroquel. I wouldn’t give her Seroquel at all. 13 could use some, but I don’t see her often. She wants to kill herself ‘cuz nobody cares. She is so alone.
If I could split it all up I would:
- Give 3 a hug and a meal & sleep plan
- Put 7 in school
- Put 13 in therapy and on an SSRI
- Get 25 a job and a diet
- Do anything necessary to lift Fairy Godmother’s depression.
The polka dots make sense if split out, but I’m SO CONFUSED!
© Michelle Routhieaux 2011