4-21-10              1:38am

Something strange happened the other night. I’ve been having religious experiences. Some might call them psychotic but I don’t think they are. I’ve been getting messages from all sorts of things – songs, movies, people. It’s not like the movie is telling me to go do something. But there are lessons I’m learning in many things. And the other night I sat down to write about love and this song was suddenly very strong in my head. The chorus played over and over:

I will praise You in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I’ve cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I couldn’t write. I was laying on my mom’s bed and I could feel and see the outlines of people or spirits standing around the bed. Not good spirits though, evil ones or demons. I was scared. Then I saw these little demon fairies flying all around my legs and slicing them up. I couldn’t feel it, just see their energy. Naturally, this freaked me out. And I couldn’t think of a single person to call. If I called my doctor he’d tell me I was psychotic. If I called KLOVE, they’re in the middle of a pledge drive and I’d get a phone bank person. It was really late so I didn’t want to wake up Ken. So I prayed. And I cried. And the song continued to play. And then the evil spirits faded and to my right God or Jesus was standing there. He was like the spirits, invisible but I could feel Him. And I reached my hand out and laid it on the bed next to Him. I felt warm and safe. The evil spirits were still there but the fairies were gone and I wasn’t afraid. And ever since then He’s been following me. I feel him with me wherever I go. I don’t know what it means but I know it’s not a bad thing. And I don’t think I’m psychotic. I told Ken today (my choir director who’s also a pastor) and he said, “God’s got your back.” Lol. I’d thought that too. (weary smile)

Has God ever followed you?