Life hands you things sometimes that you cannot understand. today is one of those days! –MB

5-9-10                   2:20am

Every day is one of those days… Every day.

Every day I wake up and wonder why I’m living the life that I am. Every day I can’t understand just what’s happening to my body or why. And there’s no way to stop it. Every day. There are things I understand less than others, like Randy. I don’t not understand his action. I don’t understand my reaction. But it’s hard to say I understand less crying for no reason in a Taco Bell drive through tonight and shedding my seat belt and sweater and bra and curling up in a ball unable to talk. (pause) That I don’t understand. But I’m lucky enough in that moment to know that, although I have no idea what’s going on, it will pass. And it will happen again.

Every day…

Every day.

© Michelle Routhieaux 2010